We are bombarded with injustices daily. We can't tackle everything, so increasing our own vitality and doing as much as we can on a personal level is as valid a contribution as any. However, there are times when we have to step out of our comfort zone, follow our gut instincts and go the extra mile to see what it is that attracts us to a particular issue and why we feel the need to do something about it.
Over the past two years, the Tuam Babies scandal has crept into my subconscious and I've found it virtually impossible to shake, as I've mentioned before my meditations and dreams often involve the happenings of the home and I wake up in the mornings needing to exorcise an aspect of it into writing/drawing or some thing. This is curious. I don't know where it's taking me. I've connected to the general public and I am wholly reliant on them as to whether this project 'Tuam Spirit Babies' is viable or not. Maybe the writing I am doing is enough. Who knows? This place of not knowing and allowing things to unfold is out of my comfort zone. I feel vulnerable (only a smidgen of what those in the homes experienced) and I'm left asking questions such as:
What is it within this story that I need to heal about myself?
I know very little about the Irish side of my family, maybe there is some ancestral link.
What are the injustices within this story?
Who were the victims?
When are we the victims?
Who were the perpetrators?
When are we the perpetrators?
Why this story?
Who is lying beneath the soil at the home site?
What could we tell from their bones if they were exhumed?
The timing of this story is a factor; so much had come out about the cruelty experienced in the industrial schools and magdalene laundries and it was the sheer numbers and the proximity of Tuam to where I am based that resonated, that, and perhaps a case of 'NIMBY' that has also got under my skin.
When we start asking these kind of questions, we still see the injustice but it has a slightly different complexion.
Many terrible things happened at the Mother and Baby home in Tuam and indeed in all the other 'homes' nationwide. Many people were involved at many different levels, it's very complex. But, it was an injustice. It's easy to apportion blame but what are we doing about it?
This all happened in the past. Children died a long time ago but the repercussions of it are enormous. Survivors must feel so damaged, lacking in confidence and the aspect of 'not knowing' must be torturous. The injustice is keeping them in this place of turmoil if we do nothing about it.
In the meantime, life goes on. The sun is shining today. It's the summer holidays and no doubt, children living on the estate will continue to play on the playground (a probable burial site) just as they always do.
Where's the injustice in that?.#Tuamspiritbabies