Several years ago I had a miscarriage which was horrendously painful and distressing (a bit like a mini labour.) I was 15 weeks pregnant and somehow managed to catch the embryonic sac mid flow. I was astounded to see this seemingly perfect life form lying in the palm of my hand; it even had little fingers and toes. Very quickly (like so many other women) I was wrenched from this beautiful spiritual moment and thrust into the harsh reality of the hospital, where I was pushed and prodded and told that it was normal (which it is) and that I’d get over it (which I have) but it took revisiting that time in my life, honoring it and consciously asking for healing around it.
That incident and another miscarriage a year later have had a huge impact on me. I deliberately took the time to face my grief head on by working though it in artistically (I have a collection of paintings and sketch books from that time) and it really did help. Luckily I have been blessed with a beautiful family (two boys and two girls) but I also allow myself to think of who the other two could have been.
Since the first miscarriage I have met so many women who’ve had similar or worse experiences and it is evident and palpable how so many of them still carry the pain of their particular incident years later. I have met elderly women who still well up about the still birth they had in their twenties or the shame and guilt they carry over adoption or abortion. The discoveries around the mother and baby homes really struck a chord with the nation and the need to acknowledge this common experience is enormous.
All these experiences draw on our shared humanity, we feel each others pain or at least have empathy for the loss or mistreatment of another. In order to acknowledge our individual or collective loss I am leading a daylong workshop which is simply called Spirit Babies. It will be a day of meditation, healing and sharing.
Saturday October 10th at the Inner Beauty Holistic Centre, Terryland, Galway. 10.30-4pm. All welcome. €50.00
Please contact: Sadie Cramer – 087 2940458 to book a place